3 am thoughts

I do not want to come here and keey crying about this and that, but let’s start somewhere. I am writing this at 0239 hours.

This amazing post is coming straight after the post I wrote on 23rd of July. And a dog is barking outside my house. I don’t like animals in general, I find them unnecessary and annoying. I have a soft corner for cats but that’s it.

So, shall we talk about inconsistency? I think it’s a curse that has been gifted to me, by myself! I am not a …. This dog is breaking my link, I want to beat the shit out of him.

Okay, so about inconsistency, my biggest problem is, not that I am lazy. But my priorities are not right. I waste a lot of time generally, in YouTube. But when I’m not wasting my time there, I am doing some random stuff. That stuff maybe planned but my priorities are not on point.

To explain it, let me tell you the latest time killer of mine. Today, yesterday and the day before that, all these day went in making my project TeleS3. I was working on it continuously.

It won’t be wrong to say that I spent almost all the time of these days in doing it. I didn’t do anything else in those time slots where I was productive. Now one might argue that this is a great thing that I am working. But actually it is not.

When I decide that I am going to give atleast 1 hour to something, there should also be a maximum limit. When I say that I am going to do something, there shall be a minimum and maximum time that I will spend on it.

This is particularly important because I wish to have a balanced life where I do not lean towards one thing. Doing that can make my life monotonous which looks super productive in the instantaneous time but it is fatal in the long run. If I write code for 18 hours a day, I will feel like I am the next Jeff Bezos because I am so productive but in a few years, I will be weared off so much that it will become impossible for to continue.

It’s not about getting tired, there is something called fatigue which is caused due to excessive stress or pressure on the same thing. Doing something and only that thing continuously will make me equivalent to a donkey.

Well, this was in no sense, a justification to my inconsistency but rather a warning to my future self to not be too consistent.

Talking of priorities, this is something one of my college professor has shared today. Another one of those facebook posts I thought, but this is something really meaningful. Misplaced priorities can take you downhill.

While I am talking about this, priorities, inconsistency and all that, it’s whispering ‘Atomic Habits’ into my ear. I have that book, I even started reading it but never went past 1st chapter. I am not sure about what I think of self help books, I wish they do something good to me, because I have a lot of self help books that I have to read. Which I bought after seeing Instagram posts or reels.

Well it reminded me that, my Instagram feed was filled with books, code and educational stuff back in the day, now it is filled with normal memes, posts of people and random news. It’s a different thing that I don’t use Instagram and I have it just for messaging and a bit of pass time.

Haha, I am defending myself. From this, I am reminded of something, in Taarak Mehta ka Ooltah Chasma, the Gokuldham society is portrayed as a family. Everyone is well aware of that, the characters as well as the audience. But yet whenever something happens between the members which is intimate to an extent that you might not want to share with random society members but can to family members. Be it a problem or be it a secret. The characters say ‘Hum Gokuldham Society toh ek parivar jaise hai’ to reinforce the idea of society is one family. The problem is not that they say it, but they say it thousands of times. I have heard this sentence sooo many times.

If you are really a family, you do not need to reinforce the fact by specifying it again and again. Just accept that you are not a parivar.

I remembered, Vinesh Phogaat has been disqualified out of Olympics 2024 because she was overweight by ~ 2100 grams. I wouldn’t like to comment on her political standings and what kind of demands she had made from her protests. I just want to say we shall not act like we have seen the future and give assurance about anything in the heat of the moment. I am referring to her “national nahi khelnge, sidha olympic medal layenge” statement. Because when you make such absurd statements, there are extreme possibilities.

Either your said words become true and you are treated like you had prophecy or you fall on your face. And both are extreme ends. We shall always avoid the extremes.