Day 0
Hi there, I am Yash. I am going to start writing about myself on this blog, hopefully everyday. I am starting this because I have realised that I have degraded myself to unimaginable extents. I have reduced to a miserable human being that is good for nothing. I have lost my charm and I have lost my capablities.
I am a severe porn addict, a severe phone addict and my attention span is terrible. I haven’t realised it today, I have had realised this way back. But I never took action on it. I always just kept delaying the action. Drowning myself into this rabbit hole more and more, I just kept degrading and degrading.
All this needs to stop now, I have had enough of all this, I have let myself down for almost 6 years now, I need to get out of it. It is the time. I am taking this initiative and I will write here everyday. I used to write in my personal journal but that was not quite affective. I will still maintain the journal for noting down my personal things but I am going to write here mainly.
There are two parts of life I believe. The one is external and the other is internal. The circumstances around us and our response to it, this comes from Man’s search for meaning as far as I can remember, it is my favourite book as of now. So, for me, both of my parts of life, internal as well as external are quite bad. The external environment that I live in currently is not suitable for the incubation of my ambitions, and my internal response to the environment, my internal climate to is not a big help either. I am standing at a stage where I have to fight both the battles at once. I have to defeat the external forces from interfering my plans, and not affecting the weather and I have to take care of my internals and change the climate as per the needs. I have to do – Kudrat hai mera dost aur mein mausam ko bigaadta.
I have made the conscious decision now, this is finalised. There is no looking back!
Let’s build Yash.