Ever since I joined work, I haven’t really focused on studies at all. In fact this time, it is my 4th semester examination and I do not know even the subjects that I am supposed to study. The last time when I was this distant from studies was when I was in 12th standard.
My attention span has dipped so much, that learning has become very hard for me at this point. This is majorly due to work. Because I am so used to writing some code, seeing the output and then writing more code, I am very much addicted to that feedback loop. It is pretty much like social media addiction, although it is not really addictive, but it has surely fried my dopamine receptors.
Now when I think about it, this break that I have took from work, the mini vacation is actually helpful and was pretty much needed. It has made me realise this important thing. I have to take care of my brain and myself along with everything that I do. I was very much into work all the time that I did not focus on anything else in the past months, which surely has negatively affected my life.
I feel like, I will fail in maths again this semester, but let’s see how it goes. I am not scared of failing, because it is manageable through re-exam.